Last week I presented a question to a very dear friend of mine, who is a pastor, a full-time street evangelist, and a jail minister. He continually immerses himself in the Word of God and prayer, so who better to consult with about this.

Before I share the question, allow me to give a brief background. I lived a godless, wicked life until someone told me about Jesus. After that, I tried hard to do better although I still planned, and pursued wicked things. I clearly was trying to have one foot in the world and one foot in Heaven so to speak – something I have come to call my “sin-sorry-sin-sorry life”.

As it turns out, the message I heard about Jesus was not the true Gospel – I had fallen pray to a combination of a healthy, wealth, and prosperity gospel with easy believe-ism mixed in. I was trying “to do good” for selfish reasons. Then I heard the true Gospel, the whole Truth and nothing but the Truth as they say. That’s when everything truly changed, God changed me and gave me 5 years of victory over sin.

Things were going so well in my walk with the Lord that I began to question if I was His; after all, I know the Scripture says the Christian life will be difficult, and things seemed to be going well. So I began praying this to God. After a while of praying this it was as if God said, “OK”, and it is like He removed my ability to resist temptation. This has sent me on a 3-year roller coaster ride that I so desperately want to get off of.

I have