I am excited about this post for this very cool reason:
I started out my study time with the intention of digging into Romans 11:22, which I still plan to do. But, when I was praying before my study I was praying that God would forgive the wicked sexual thoughts I had last night. As I prayed I was asking God for discernment as to whether this was a spiritual attack or just more of the same from the wickedness that lies deep in me. I don’t want to blame demonic influence, but I don’t want to be ignorant to its reality either. The reason I had this confusion is because the coincidence is too much to go unnoticed. It seems like the two-month mark of “doing good” in my fight against the flesh is met by a fall. In addition, a “spiritual high” seems to have a spiritual collapse on its heels. Yesterday was a good day of ministry; fruitful posts on social media that resulted in some Truth sharing, etc. Then last night something triggered a stroll down the wrong road in my mind.
As I prayed for cleansing, I began to thank God that these wicked thoughts “died on the vine” so to speak. As I prayed this I started to think of the progression of sin:
1) We know it comes from the wickedness that is on our heart
2) Then it goes to the mind where we play with it
3) When we play with it long enough in our mind, it becomes reality, we obsess about it until the desire of the flesh has been satisfied
4) Then once satisfied, the shame immediately follows